Boy I'm Good At Pretending

Everyone thinks I am handling this no Gluten thing just fine. Little do people know I wish I would have cancer or some terminal illness instead. I see everyone eating such wonderful things that I used to eat and cry later that night because its hard to see and smell such delectable goodies. I am also getting sick of hearing people say how it sucks for me. Please stop reminding me. I remember this on a daily basis when I watch you eat. I am really sick of putting on a happy face saying the glass is half full and it could be worse! Well the F^#$%*& glass is half empty and this is worse than having cancer. At least with cancer there's a possibility of surgery and radiation therapy. I would at least still get to eat Ding Dongs, PF Changs Mongolian Beef, Apple Jacks, most Chinese food, and not have to look at all F^#$%*& ingredients that I am about to put in my mouth. At least with cancer I would know that my life is coming to an end and be able to prepare for a poetic ending to my life. I am sick of pretending! Dont try to cheer me up... it doesnt work! Nothing you could say would make me feel better! Unless you had a cure...